there's nothing more then delightful morning start with a good news :)

hello peeps!!!

Know what...iam so thankful to Allah... i got a new job... Alhamdulillah.. suka sgt...sampi xtaw nk ckp pape.. i try to call my fiance, but no answer. End up with telling ma parents bout it. They still wanna hv things mcm "nk tgk dulu".. huhuhu..it's ok... m too bless...xtaw nk ckp per nie..nanit laa update...

ngee...daaa!!

Losing It

Hey there !!..I am not 100% done with all these messy work but am taking a short break anyway, fuhh.... Tetiba kepala rasa macam nak kena miggrain attack jer...and hati still sakit+kecewa+frustrated....huhhh...juz named it... m feeling it now! it's terrible you know... i really wish things gonna be better on my side. Non-stop pray to God, may He let me feel the pleasure once again.


I did something terrible this morning. I woke in a very good mood, did something which i think might make my love one happy, came to the office with a stripes black + greeen baju kurung. Perfect! Suddenly, i think of asking him bout his feelings if someone did called n smsed me at 1 am. As expected, he will meengamuk laa... He said something like this laa...

" haa..tu suma mengarut!! call other girl at 1 am...apa pasai?? apa masalah?? tu suma dah mula nk mengarut. sms plak yg mcm tu knp..? whatever masalah dia dgn wife dia...xdak kena mengena ngn ayg... pi la cari org lain...y u?? "

Thank God he reacted that way. At least i know he loves me. i try to twist a lil bit the story as i am so pissed off after what he had done before. Know what... he totally change into DONT-NAME-IT creatures, and said somethng that hurt me the most. Cum'on.. you called other girl at 1 am, and u said there's nothing actually?? and the most-hurt part is that...he didnt admit his mistakes. x mengaku kot call other girl at 1 am.. i knew him. di axkan mengaku selagi xdak bukti dpn mata.

We almost fight for everything this morning. And tell u wat...i didnt regret sikit pun. I did a right thing by knwing he made a called at 1 am that night. But he keep saying that i'm wrong. He want me to admit that watever happen btwn me n him, is bcoz of me. Goshh!!! How could you abg..?? U know u are wrong... yet you still want to pretend like you did nothing.

" Dont pretend like nothing when it is everything..!! M sick of it..!! "

Is that what they mean by "man"?? GOSHH!!! It such an annoying-thingy. i dont know why... he dont even realise...x serik2 buat mende yg aku x ske. Giler wehjhh letih mcm nie... haaiihh...

I was thinking bout letting go everything. I cant afford to handle this thing anymore. The moment i decided to settle down everything...things are worst.. like always, he was totally mad, mengada2, kerek, sombong, samseng...suma2 laa... I know...I know... it was just bcoz he's so mad. But does it mean i hv to let go just like that...and let thing to hepen again?

I went breathless for a couple of seconds. I was so angry, I kinda hit him pretty hard on his face a couple of times, resulting him bursting into tears and screaming bcoz of hurt most. I felt terribly bad instantly and regretted what I did. I don't hit him. I try really hard to talk nicely to him tapi now that I get tired easily, senang sangat nak lose temper. I know. I am a bad one.

Is raya time.....weeeehhuuuu!!!

hello peeps!! it's raya,..but i dont feel like raya at all...yeaahh...evryone is here...except for my lil ssyss...she's up there....stay hold...for her exams...huhhh...pitty u syss... tell u wut... i miss u babe!
okkayy.... any rendang?? any lemang? not at all...haiiyaa... goshh... later laa..okkayy..babe..

OMG!! i cant believe it..It happen again??

okayy.... iknow..i know...!!! it's my fault. somebody Hack my account. This account..!! u got it?? My blog... huhhh...u guys dont have any better thing to do ahh? and why me?? why laarr...

I've been thinking of creting new one, as for the continuation of my last blog which being deleted. ( okehh2...sabar....i'll tell you..later...one by one..) then i got this super wonderful thngs i think...TUMBLR. Gosh!! awesome...!! i got one...but later i found..it's not suitable for blogging around. People there used to share picts, quote, thoughts...and much more...not much about telling others what really happen in our daily life. So...i pun think..like...x elok laa kan...while people on my dashboard keep sharing bout what they got from no-where...while...m the only one who keep telling here n there....how wonderful my life are...huhhh...konon laa kan...hehe...it's kinda selfish thing laa....heyy!!! it's true you know..

luckily...i remember, i got this one account...but... ( dgn mata mengecil nyer..) i feel like....haiiyaaa....boring laa...that account... x colourful. So ..now..dgn semangat waja nyer... i decided to use this account back....n try to create something interesting here. Yeaahh...!!! here..!!

bermula la acara kt cni..nnti..so i have to check it out..more frequent...supaya x rase mcm buku sejarah jer my blog. okehh..

ok people..enuff!! let me tell u...how it happen actually. hari kejadian tu kan..i dunno laa...biler kan...sbb....suddnly , when i try to login, x bole plak...3 kali kot cuba...thn i think...xkan laa...aku silap pasword.. cum;on... u guys knw how frequent i am viewing my blog. xkan la bole lupa...thn ..i da rase pelik laa..kan...bcoz...everyone kt opis mcm acting weird jer...i dont care...i keep mumbling here n there... i try to view my blog as a public...bole plak..sudenly...few of my posts being deleted. lagi laa hangin aku mase tuh... thn i know...the weird acting in da opis has something to do with this. fullstop. i know already. before ballik keje..my account being de-activate dah. How sad!!! kan..? kan?... x mo laaa...jgn laa... more thn 2 years kot pnya blog...kesian aku wehhh... ok..now i got this one...n my TUMBLR. hope to mk it as good as the last one.

" i oways feel at ease everytime i got time t write something bout me here.."

i miss my old blog.

k laa...tata..

i had enuf i think..

it's oredi 5.41 am... n m still here..think all over again. Sometimes i just wonder why i cant get this thing out of my mind. Is it bcoz what they had done to me?
"He" to be exact.
i believe i was not born to experience all this. I already try my hardest best to make sure we are at the best condition. But sometimes, people are too blind to see that. They prefer not to understand to what they see, what they hear, and what they feel. Keep lying to me. Bcoz i already get used to it. the good thing is, i'm not worry anymore. Well guys, u know when ladies are worried. They tend to ask more, talk more, think a lot and they start to think all the possibilities. that's when they are worry. But be glad as well, if they are not worry. No questioning session for you guys, u guys need no brain storming session to find a good reason for mistakes that u did, no need to find good words juz to mk ur ladies feel good. But one think i can tell u... "u r loosing her". PERIOD.
when there's no worry with ladies....u guys are actually loosing them. Jealousy?? it just a sign that they are so in love with you...why make it complicated?? just accept it. Shud be happy for that. at least there are still somebody who loves you. Wink2!
Tell me something....is there any reason for me to forgive somebody who did something for so many times?? all over again...
hurmm...well guys... u decide for me after wht he did to me...okay??

here we go!!

well...nothing much i can say...juz created the new one. So, I hope i can have something new with the new one.

daa!!!